"Taking a look at herself, she thought to herself "this is all I can be". She feels the only strength she has is the all acclaimed 'bottom power'. Afterall, that was all her mother had and definitely used to achieve all she has today. So she strongly trusts in it to take her to the status she always dreamed of having. Yet, deep inside of her, is a cry for freedom. She feels totally bound by something bigger than her. In her head is that voice that says "prostitution is all you can be", but in her heart is a rebelling voice that screams "NO!" How can she reconcile her heart to her head? They are sending her two different messages. In her quiet time, she drowns the heart voice with tears and alchohol. She is constantly getting frustrated by the fight going on within her. But the moment she sets out for her 'night' duties, the heart voice flees. Because she at that point just can't heeed to it anymore. After her duties as she gets back, she goes through the same cycle of fight. The head and the heart tearing her apart with contradictory voices. Who can save her from this...
The truth however is what the heart is telling her: "You are better and stronger than you know. This might be the only way you know to take care of yourself, but that is ALL you know. What about the one you DON'T know? That you made in the image and llikeness of God. That in you lies a solution being awaited by the entire world. That nations are waiting to rebuild your walls? That there's a bigger, better and stronger you that you are yet to discover?" That is the voice that should win the fight. Let it do so and be set free!
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